Just Breathe .... Have you ever had a feeling stuck in your gut? The kind that makes you feel all bottled up and castrated emotionally and the constipation of anger entwined by a disgusted lump of anger somewhere struggling to erode the essence of your soul away. The tears sigh heavily resting on your eye lids looking for the lightening to strike and burst down those deep dark eyes. The choked voice lies echos with the sound of your fake laughter and laments every chromosome in your body? Well.. I have. I am.. It makes me hard to look at everyone the way i used to a few days ago. In random chit chats, i visualize in my head faces of the same people pointing fingers at me and laughing - OUT LOUD! It makes my heart ache and leaves a part of me in anguish and despise and turmoil. In the little triggered corner, i feel my heartbeat shouting in a caged prison and wanting to run away and hide. But where can i go? How far will i run? They wouldn't find me, would they? They couldn't
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Letter 1 - The Boy Who Is Scared!
Letter 1 - The Boy Who Is Scared! This pretty little girl writes to me about his guy she has been playing hide and seek for since the past 3 years. They have only spent something like 7 days together, spread through the years. But has no complaints.She knows he is her soul-mate and someday, they will go out on a real DATE. I fell in love with her lines and I HAD TO mention this here: I am not afraid of him. He’s fearful of me. He's petrified that he once lost something so close, so dear that he's afraid he'll lose again. He's worried that I am appealing, and if I am around he'll never rely on his so called decisions. He’s scared that I’m too interesting, that I’ll distract him from all the other girls. He's anxious that we share something so strikingly similar that I might manipulate him into sharing something more. He’s frightened that I’m too beautiful, and that if I’m around, the he’ll never make it out of bed in the morning. He's terrified
shopaholic !!! I popped to the shops for lunch today And yes, I am afraid to say I just couldn't leave with nothing So to bargain hunt I stayed… People often wonder where my secret lies How can I shop that much and still afford to survive? I say It's in the swipe of my card The speed of my arm My eye for a bargain The strength of my charm Because I'm a shopper Obsessively Shopaholic That's me!